Gates

- By Swathi



Often, in life, it feels as if we've hit a dead end, as if there's nothing beyond the chaotic present and no glimmer of joy on the other side. When the gates of criticism, rejection, and discontent slam in our faces, these terrifying thoughts haunt us. But, as I learned through a series of small life situations, life does not take something away without offering us something greater in exchange.
For as long as I can remember, I had been building on a dream. It was not a common professional path, and I was satisfied with myself for being different, and I was prepared to devote myself to it, no matter how long it took. But, over the last two years, my thoughts on the matter have dwindled, and I've begun to wonder if it's something I really want, and the answer, harsh as it was, was simply no. It wasn't easy to let go of that objective, since it contained a piece of myself, a Horcrux, that I was so proud of, the fearless, passionate, and unapologetic part of me that didn't care what others thought and were ready to make ends meet.

- Swathi M

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